I Don't Know why. But I Cried

Lonely Nights by *Adiago on deviantART

Originally posted in DA Jan 24, 2010

Yes. you read it just right. i cried

it was just this afternoon after i arranged my room. [btw, i found out that as a student, i only need 2 black shoes, 1 pair rubber shoes, sneakers and slippers plus sandals] and after cleaning, i also found out my stack of shoes [rubber shoes, steel toe shoes and etc and sandals here. guess i need to return it home.]

going back to my story, it was when i went to the Church to join in the celebration of the mass. i just walk from my boarding house to the Cathedral. then i immediately took the best seat for me. then just minutes after the mass began, a family took their seats in fron of my pew where i am seated. everyone is there, mom, dad, brother, sister and grandma. they look so happy.

then i dont know what i felt that time. jealous? nah. envious? not really. lonely? gah.

i dont know what happened. but a tear flowed from my eye.

then i started saying, "I MISS MY FAMILY SO MUCH"

i am studying in a place where i need to adjust from the environment most of the time. if i want to go home, i still need ride a bus that will take me to a 3 hour trip back way home. im occupying a room now. and yes, i know i miss my family. my family's away to me physically but i know they are just right here in my heart. im sorry about that. i may sound to crappy but that is my feeling.

i need to go somewhere else to study. i guess it will just be in a form of sacrifice on our part because they are also doing their best to support me in my chosen want-to-have-career.

just this evening, i texted my mom to inform her that i miss everyone. and she replied that they miss me too. that made me feel better. im planning to call them after posting this thing.

well guys, im sorry for feeling this way. sometimes, i just need to take a break from being happy. no im not an emo. i just being true to myself. good thing you're here too! my DA and Blogger family.  thanks for everything!

i love you ALL.

cheers+:peace:+:heart:

xoxo,

Skeeper

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